sad little man

i am a simple stupid man with millions of character flaws who doesn't realise what is evident to all right thinking budhijibiis...hmm so that makes me a moron then

maybe i am....maybe i have been 'brainwashed by the decadent west' 

all i know is that i spent an entire decade of my life terrified that i wont get a job...and that i will have to depend upon my parents for money all my life....and that they will be ashamed of me.....

because of the decadent west i am not afraid anymore, i am not terrified anymore...

because of decadent west my mother is alive today

because of decadent west if an accident happens to me today and i become an invalid or whatever...my parents wont have to sell their house to take care of me

hell because of evil decadent west i am alive today...because the evil decadent west gave me the ambulance, and gave me the medicine which makes me alive today

i dont know much of anything because i dont understand much

all i know is i am proud of  being an indian

i am proud of being in a country where part of my hard earned money, the same money that i earn after working for 12 hours a day for weeks at an end, is going to fund research, and is going to help kids remain in academics, and is going to put food in the mouth of kids in villages....yes that happens btw under the govt sponsored midday meal scheme, kids throughout villages and cities in all govt schools get free breakfast and lunch.......school attendance amongst kids is at its highest ever

i am proud of being in a country where i can stand and say whatever i want to say

i am proud of being in a country where people are not shot and killed for demonstrating unlike evil UK or holy, honest, godly Pakistan, or the utopian socialist China

i am proud of being in a country where both RSS and MIM, JIM etc coexist

i am proud of being in a country where the prime minister is an economist and an-ex president a nuclear physicist

i am proud of being in a country where even the animals have rights, very few, but they do have.....unlike godly Pakistan or the utopian, socialistic China

i am proud of being in a country where healthcare is massively subsidised...under Rajiv Arogya Yojana as started by Reddy....where people of the lowest income group can avail treatment from expensive hospitals like Yashoda for virtually peanuts

i am proud of being in a country where millions are employed in loss making public sector units like ONGC are still run and will always run because it provides employment to millions and cheap gas and diesel etc to billions 

(the subsidy ka money in all these cases comes from taxes from the evil western institutions btw)

i am proud of being in a country where parents, grandparents and teachers are still the most respected members

i am proud of being in a country where it really doesn't matter where i am from or what the colour of my skin is, or what language i speak...i can go and work and settle in any part of the country...(except kashmir where hindus are not allowed to settle btw........hundreds of thousands of hindus, virtually the whole hindu population was killed and driven off from the valley....now they live in refugee camps in jammu and delhi; and yet there have been no retaliation against anybody...gjarat was an one-off occurence and now it transpires that it was more economic than religious.....1 group wanted the businesses of another etc etc)

i am proud of being in acountry where electricity in every home is no a distant dream anymore with the coming of the nuclear reactors

i am proud of being in a country which opens its arms to people who have been persecuted for their religion, their views, or for what they have written in books....the same people who cant enter their own countries for fear of being killed can lead a normal life in this country...i am proud of that

i am proud of being in a country where the elderly get the utmost respect everywhere (despite the brainwashing by the evil decadent west)

i am proud of being in a country where a woman can do whatever she wants without fears of persecution and public flogging etc etc

i am proud of being in a country where there is no media censorship

i am proud of being in a country where people care about olive ridley turtles

i am proud of being in a country where you get free help everywhere (which speaks about human decency and humanity, despite being brainwashed by the evil west)

i am proud of being in a country with the ration card system where poor people get massively subsidised rice, wheat, pulses, oil and kerosene (despite us selling ourselves to the evil west who only cares about profits)

i am proud of....but whats the point of going on...we r part of the evil west now and so enemy of humanity

are we perfect...hell no....are there rooms for improvement...hell yes....are we going in the right direction....slowly yes

but hell we r evil bastards...we are allies of the decadent evil west

all that is about my country

i am a simple stupid man, selfish man with millions of other character flaws....

but i really do care about certain things...i care about freedom, 

apart from that i care about my parents, i care about a girl in Bangladesh and i care about the ones who have no voice, to whit animals.....

 

i care about them because no one else particularly does (most definitely not society or the government) and because i love them from the bottom of my soul and ever shrinking heart

and i care about animals because most don't and someone has to

i dont read books about economics, about imperialism, about decadence, about our society, our culture

i do my work, i earn money...i keep some of that money to help my parents in old age...some  is pend to make me happy...and some i give to people and animals who need it more than i do

i dont really like discussing politics or imperialism or socialism or the evil west, 

i am practical and a fatalist....the world is doomed, to be precise human beings and most animals are doomed....with evolution some other creature may arise who knows...we arent staying

in my own sad little selfish brainwashed pathetic way i care about the present, i care about putting a smile in a kid's face or a wag in a dog's tail

i leave the philosophical important intellectual deliberations to people who are more intelligent than me and people who are probably hell certainly better human beings than me

me i am kinda content with my own sad little pathetic selfish brainwashed life.....not happy....never will be happy for some unavoidable and unchangeable circumstances...especially with my innumerable character flaws getting more and more evident to the one person who means the most to me in the world......and who by indications will slowly but surely get disillusioned and disdainful for me because of my sad little pathetic, brainwashed views and life

i will live my own sad little pathetic brainwashed life as it is, every day at a time, 

i will help people and animals who need help, 

i will speak for the ones who have no voice, 

i will dream of a girl and love her all my life even though she thinks that in some way in some logic in some philosophy whatever happens to her doesnt  matter to me 

and finally i will die....that will be the end of my sad little pathetic, brainwashed life

these are just my sad, little, pathetic, brainwashed views about life etc.....i know it doesnt match to the high standards set by people much better than me (duh!!) but hell what to do

sometime in the future i will become a sort of a hermit, i will quit everything and go live with the animals in sandy's shelter... its better that way...the animals wont judge me and look down upon me....hate that...its probably an ego thing...see another character flaw...the animals wont care about how i look or what my views are...they will love me or who i am ... a smelly little man who gives them food and takes care of them and plays with them

and then around 60 will stop taking my medicine and bam...the end

--